Growth

My life has been changing a lot lately
I kinda had one of those moments where you realize that you are letting life pass you by and your just watching opportunities pass by.
I am going to be leaving Lighting Design in two weeks and I am going to miss it a lot.
I really wish that I didn't need to quit but I really need work experience as a CNA to make it into college.
This summer has been awesome.
I recently took a trip down to california and tried out surfing.
I was explaining to trent one day that I've wanted to try it my entire life and he pointed to my car and said "well theres your car."
Thanks trent!
Its funny how sometimes solutions are easy but getting yourself to take the step is hard.
So my friend Jon and I loaded up our stuff and headed out on a Thursday and made it to the beach on Friday.
We spent 7 hours surfing on Saturday. I got up on my 4th try :)
Then Sunday we jumped back in the car and came home.
Tonight I went cliff jumping and it made me crave Lake Powell.
I miss those days.Getting old seems to have some disadvantages. I have been fighting some huge disappointments.
I don't understand the mentality that part of "growing up" means you abandon everything that you care about to pursue "dreams" (if you want to call them that)
Why did Adam fall again?
I hope that I can continue to love life and live it with the ambition I've developed over the past while. For my own sake.
I've had this song in my head from primary "if the Savior stood beside me"
Im not sure if that is its actual name.
I just don't think that if the Savior stood beside me he'd want me to sit at home and do nothing.
I guess that also fits in with "stand up and do something more" that is also sung in primary.
Maybe its not what the authors intended but thats how I am translating them.
I hope this isn't translated in a way that would make it seem as if I had an inflated sense of self worth...
Its just an update of my life and how I am living it.